It confused me when i heard you say we don't talk any more. when did we ever talked. There isn't anything to say anymore. Everything has been said...nothing has been done. I have been misunderstood and accused of crimes I did not commit. You said you missed me...when you see me very day. why? cause i am here but not my mind. I have been accused many times for not showing concern about your life. I only sit there and talk. so now I keep quiet and listen, and thats bad too. You want the old me back, but I have lost her myself. I don't know how to get her back. Nothing will anymore I guess. I speak my mind here, where i will not be attacked, end up listening to cries of sensitive statements from you. I write and I go to my cold bed, and pray hard to fall asleep. So I have the strenght to live another day of hardship in this lonely world of mine. Today when I started making conversation...telling you how my day went, by the time I took a breath to finish, you have started talking. At the end i heard you talk for 20 mins and when you were done you asked if I had any funny stories to tell to make you feel better. I was going to tell you something funny if you had not interupt me in the first place! Normally this would have made me angry, but now i have no emotions...so pls let the old me be lost. Do not bother to find her. Let her be just a memory nothing more...cause thats all she deserves!
AC
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