Been looking into the mirror lately and I find I don't recognise the person in it. I've always thought of myself as a sweet guy, 'one of the girls' sort, always up for a laugh, show me the party and I'm there, devil may care attitude, all the razzle and dazzle, a comfort and fun to have around sort of guy. But I've realised that that person barely exists anymore. I'm more cynical, world weary, paranoid, quicker to anger, more prone to being in the pits and I find that my soul is stained by a darkness, a rage which never was there before. Maybe it's growing older, seeing and doing things I never thought I would which have marked me. For better or worse? I don't know. I feel like I'm falling into an abyss. But I know I'm blessed as well. For those of you who know me I'm still in the pink of health after all the abuse I put my body through *grinz*. A family which still wants me to come up in life and loves me unconditionally even after everything I've done. Friends who have my back and believe me, I've got yours. In case you don't know who you, are a big shout out to M.T and Karadi. I love you guys man. And most importantly to Muffin, who showed me the dark, ravening beast which exists in me. Thank you for showing me a side I never knew existed. Till next time,
Our thought for the day,
The character of every act depends upon the circumstances in which it is done.
- Nightwatch
