Ramblings of a disconnected mind...

The world spun off its axis, and still we waited.
The night grew light, not a sound did we make.
The storm battered the walls, fury unabated.
The heavens tore asunder, no vision moved us.
We stood in the eye of a maelstrom, the calm before the storm. We walked the void, marveling its emptiness.
A thousand suns seared our flesh, and still we did not care.
We walked among the fires and marvelled at the flames.
We played with the devils and sang with the angels never acknowledging the taint.

Till next time, Our thought for the day,

Age does not protect you from love. But love, to some extent, protects you from age.

-Nightwatch

Remembrance

If I were to disappear one day,

Would you remember me?

Or would I be lost in procession of other thoughts,

Pushed out from the mind if not in sight?

Would you remember me,

If I disappeared into the night?

Lost in the darkness,

Never found in the light?

Would you remember the way I looked at u?

Would you remember the way my skin felt on yours?

Or the way my smile lit up your day?

Would you remember the words spoken?

Or the endless dinners enjoyed and attended?

Would remember the way your hand felt in mine?

Or the kisses shared through the night?

Would you remember the way your head nestled on my shoulder?

Or the way we planned a life together?

Would you reminisce about me to your friends?

Would you remember me if I were to disappear one day…

Till next time, Our thought for the day,

In the end we will not remember the insults of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.


-Nightwatch

Donald getting it on!!!

Job Hopper

I admit, I job hop quite a bit. Can't stay put in a place for more than a year at most. Why you ask? Probably because I have A.D.D... LoL. But seriously, looking at the current working conditions in our island nation, loyalty is not appreciated anymore... How many places actually offer a permanent position? Hardly any... Everything is on a contractual basis or out sourced. And where does that leave a poor schmuck like me? Up the creek without a paddle that's where... So if I get a better deal or a higher salary I'm out the door. Like now, just got a new job... And I've only been with my current company for two and a half months. Longer hours and all, but if it pans out I'll be making nearly twice my current take home salary. It's all about the bottom line now days or as I like to say, " Show me the Ishaks"... :D

Till next time, Our thought for the day,

When a man tells you that he got rich through hard work, ask him, 'Whose?'

-Nightwatch

American Association of professors' university

Hi , Im new to this blog, but im not new to this group.
Ive been a loyal visitor to this blog ever since i heard about it. Any way let me intro myself im aapu! hmm! thats wat they call me. The reason behind this is im the member of the Americian Association of profrssors' university. ;)

Right now im on a new assignment i will write more after the research and operation are done.

Till then see u ...

Aapu

Marudhanayagam Trailer

Muhammed Yusuf Khan

So here is a trailer of a movie that never got completed...


For some reason that can't be revealed, a member of the TMNT(MMNT) has been named 'Muhammed Yusuf Khan'. He on the other hand didn't like the name at first. So I thought it was my job to enlighten him, what a cool name this is and that there was a 'Muhammed Yusuf Khan' in the Indian history, and that it was even almost a Movie. So hope you like this bro...enjoy!

Maruthanayagam Pillai was born 1725 in the village of Panaiyur, in Rammnad 'country' in a Hindu farming family of the Pillai Vella caste. Being too restless in his youth, he left his native village, to make a living as a domestic hand at the residence of the French Governor Monsr. Jacques Law, in Pondicherry. It was here he befriended another French, who later became captain of the French force under Yusuf Khan in Madurai.

Yusuf Khan's military career started during the Carnatic Wars. He became a mercenary and fought alongside the French in the siege of Arcot in 1751. Robert Clive, impressed by the charges Yusuf Khan led against the battlements of Arcot, recruited him — and Yusuf Khan put his Nellore sepoys and cavalry at the disposal of the English. Over the next decade, as the Company fought the French in the Wars of the Carnatic, it was Yusuf Khan's guerrilla tactics, repeatedly cutting the French lines of supply, that did the French in, particularly during Lally's siege of Madras in 1758. Lally was to later describe the role of the Nellore Subedar's sepoys in these words: "They were like flies, no sooner beat off from one part, they came from another."
Under Major Stringer Lawrence , he was trained in the European method of warfare and his natural talent in military tactics and strategy blossomed to its full potential. By 1760 he had reached the zenith of his career as the 'all-conquering' military commandant. (A few years earlier he had been given the rank of 'Commandant of Company's sepoys'). His greatest supporter during this period was George Pigot, the English governor in Madras.

Yusuf Khan was held in very high esteem even after his death by the English and in their opinion he was one of the two great military geniuses India had ever produced; the other being Hyder Ali of Mysore. Yusuf Khan was regarded for his strategy and Hyder Ali for his speed. Major General Sir. John Malcolm said of him almost a fifty years later,"Yusuf Khan was by far the bravest and ablest of all the native soldiers ever to serve the English in India".

Tamil actor Kamal Haasan and SirErshad Raja and Mohan Rao - renown writer and thinker did "Maruthanayagam" portraying this character in English, French, and Tamil languages.Director by Raghavendar Rao and Music by Shivarama kirshnan.But for various reasons shooting for the movie has stopped.

You will be missed...

It's been a long, long weekend... For those of you who don't know, my paternal grandmother passed away on Thursday. After all the bickering, the wake was set for three days, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Me being the night bird I am, volunteered for the night shift. It was an interesting three nights... I got to see sides of my cousins, uncles and aunties I've never seen before. The stories which were shared, the reminiscing, the antics which we resorted to trying to stay awake three nights running, all the while remembering and honoring the memory of Amachi, as everyone called her. I admit, I don't have many memories of her as I was raised by my maternal grandmother and far closer to my mum's side of the family. But the memories I do have are of her always smiling and telling stories. I've had my arguments, but then again didn't we all? But when I saw her on her deathbed all was forgiven and forgotten. I admit, it broke my heart, seeing this small, petite woman, who singlehandedly raised 6 children after grandfather's death. Here's to you granny, rest in peace, You will be missed...

Till next time, Our thought for the day,

Family isn't about whose blood you have. It's about who you care about.

-Nightwatch

We're 1!!!

It's hard to believe that it's been a year since M.T and I started this blog. We may not be the most prolific of writers, but hey! We get by. :) Let's recap... It's been an eventful year. New friends made, bad hats dropped. Shared laughter, wept tears, lost loves, awesome sex :P, drinks shared among friends and family, watching the antics of Cyrus so vocal all of a sudden. Where does all that time go? Well, here's to another year of blogging and sharing our lives with u. And to all of our 10 readers, thanks for taking the time! Cheers!

Till next time, Our thought for the day,

All we can say about life is, Oh God, enjoy it!

-Nightwatch

Movie one liners that we can't forget

Some of my Favourite one liners...which we kinda of still use. If the situation is right.

Here are some examples when you can use them...

Situation 1. When you or someone else has done something unacceptable

Situation 2. When you are misunderstood

Situation 3. When you just wanna irritate the hell of someone. (It works for crazy crazy sadistic man, in fact he created this one liner, way before Prakash Raj did)

Situation 4. When someone thinks he is greater than everyone









Situation 5. When people think its tasking for you to understand them

Situation 6. When there is a competition going on. (even playing poker will do)

Situation 7. When someone has been too patient with his enemy

BY

M.T

Updates from Deutschland

Why can't we vacation in Australia? Where the guys are hot and the sun is warm!

Its been 5 days since arriving in the land of the cold(summer my arse). Finally we see the sun.Don't know how long it will last. It felt good to be outside to have a smoke without shivering and freezing one's ass. Smoking menthol in a cold country doesn't help either. Today we visited a castle called Lichtenstein. Cyruz is very into castle, kings and knights lately. At least he got something form me:) So I wanted him to visit the first castle I went to, which was Lichtenstein. He was very excited obviously, and kept looking for the King, and the Knights and didn't understand why were there only empty armours and no knights. I guess that will take a while before he understand that they don't exist anymore. I mean he is 4. Unlike some idiots I have had dreadfully met, think that most Germans do live in castles! Than again they are partially right. Most Germans try to live like they are royals, but just not in castles thankfully. Its 8.30pm here, while everyone at home are cuddled in bed. I better get going it's time for dinner. Did I mention that usually when you dine at home you get cold food?! Its bad enough the weather sucks can't they at least cook their food?

Signing off from the very cold Deutschland,

M.T

We' ll miss u!!!

M.T is going on a 3 week hiatus to Deutschland to see her kith and kin... Damn!!! She hasn't left yet and we already miss her. No sitting at her balcony and bitchin bout everything under da sun, meeting for dinner round her place, no watching Cyrus doing his take on the moves from "Stomp the Yard"and no watching M.T screaming at Cyrus while he does his 'acting his age' antics for the next 3 weeks!!! *Sobz* Come back soon M.T! Then all of us will come over and booze on the new consignment of vodka you bring back! :)

Till next time,

Our thought for the day,

Love is rarer than genius itself. And friendship is rarer than love.

- Nightwatch

Reflections...

Been looking into the mirror lately and I find I don't recognise the person in it. I've always thought of myself as a sweet guy, 'one of the girls' sort, always up for a laugh, show me the party and I'm there, devil may care attitude, all the razzle and dazzle, a comfort and fun to have around sort of guy. But I've realised that that person barely exists anymore. I'm more cynical, world weary, paranoid, quicker to anger, more prone to being in the pits and I find that my soul is stained by a darkness, a rage which never was there before. Maybe it's growing older, seeing and doing things I never thought I would which have marked me. For better or worse? I don't know. I feel like I'm falling into an abyss. But I know I'm blessed as well. For those of you who know me I'm still in the pink of health after all the abuse I put my body through *grinz*. A family which still wants me to come up in life and loves me unconditionally even after everything I've done. Friends who have my back and believe me, I've got yours. In case you don't know who you, are a big shout out to M.T and Karadi. I love you guys man. And most importantly to Muffin, who showed me the dark, ravening beast which exists in me. Thank you for showing me a side I never knew existed.

Till next time,

Our thought for the day,

The character of every act depends upon the circumstances in which it is done.

- Nightwatch

Parkathe From Gentleman

Significan Moments Part 2

Right than I felt I was in a cave, the silence was so loud it hurt. I looked across the room and met my mom's eyes. She shook her head in embarrassment. That very moment I thought my utter most fantasy might come tru, she might actually disown me. I gave a delightful smile and turned to look at the extreme die hard christian fanatics in the room, doubtful about any invitations for any family events in the future coming my way. Yet another Fantasy of mine for a longest time. I heard a 60 year old " Amma Nalla thaan iruntichi paake(yes it looked nice), he can be MY Gentleman he he!" . Everyone were laughing and there goes my fantasy. No disowning that night, future invitations to meaningless family gatherings on the way. Just because a 60 year old shared my sentiments for a nice pair of ass. Flushed! simply flushed down the toilet. That night was a significant moment in its own sad way. I found out wrinkly old grannies appreciate a nice ass too, I should never scream out during the end of a song(which I am still working on BTW, this explains why normally the whole club knows I have to pee when I try to scream to Nightwatch). So Here's to Arjun's Ass, "Gentleman" the movie, hard to forget after an event like this.

Cheers,

M.T

My Significant moments

Tamil movies...Mr crazy crazy man makes fun of the fact how I always complain about Tamil movies but watch it whenever i get the chance. Why do i watch Tamil movies, i serious don't know, maybe because it was great entertainment when you are broke and for 3 hours you have something to do...like bitch for an example. it was a Thursday and Friday nite tradition when SBC showed two parts of Tamil movies in the 80's. used to remember Friday mornings feeling sleepy and talking about the first half of the movie during classes. I still haven't figured out why they split the the movies into two days. maybe just maybe because...MM simply cause they CAN AND THERES NOTHING WE COULD DO ABT IT!? oh those days, I had a great talent with Tamil movies, i can watch a movie and forget the title and especially the songs. most of my friends where great with the songs they could hear a beat and tell which movie its from. I on the other hand remember a movie when there is something meaningful or significant. for example. those days wanna watch Tamil movies ? you go to Hoover theatre. My Tamil movie addict cousin drags me to watch a movie. after two bus and 1.30hrs, 6 songs 3 fights much tears, and whistles from lonely foreign workers, on the bus way back home everyone were talking about the songs they like, the costumes they liked... etc. so i thought i should say something too. I said "dame this Arjun has an ass to die for, he wearing the see tru white veshti and bending down to knead the dough, is the best part of the movie. he must be working out, cause the boy has a tight ass! that was the last time my cousins and i ever went to watch Tamil movies together. that was my significant moment... Arjun's tight ass. A year later, at a wedding they were playing a song. People went crazy, everyone started dancing, so i asked my cousin which movie? and he tried ex planing to me the best he could, no bells rang. Finally my cousin said " white veshti, nalla satti.. mahvu penenchaan da!" Just when the song was ending. There was a moment of silence, I remembered the significant moment of the movie, it all came back to me and I shouted "AHMMA DA SUPERR SATTI ILLA?!"

M.T

2 B contd

Get over it!!!

What is it with some people? It's been a year now? You've got a new job, a new hair do, a new love interest, a new 'perspective' on life etc, etc? Let it go man... Aren't you tired of grinding the same beans? To put it another way, I am no one's whipping boy. If you got issues go get professional help. Stop whining and taking a holier than thou attitude. Don't blame me man. Even your friends think you need it a better half to complete you. That's not my fault. I don't give a rat's ass what any of your friends think nor do I care, but you obviously do. Where were all these friends when you were dating me by the way? Never did hear about them or see them. Now it seems like everyone knew the relationship was doomed from the get go and you were being heroic and trying to prove them wrong... Hmmm... Ooh, look everyone!!! A martyr!!! Like you said you never were in my league, maybe you should aim lower, not higher. There may be someone out there who is just like you, someone who would rather blog their feelings then sit down and talk about them. Keeping it real you know... LoL... Go get laid darling, have a good fuck and get it out of your system... But then again... you have ta participate for best results, lying like a corpse just doesn't do it for some... Sure as hell didn't do it for me... But hey, can't blame a guy for trying to get a reaction...

Till next time,

Our thought for the day,

The Kindergarten Theory for sex :
If you can't play with your toys properly, you get them taken away.

- Nightwatch

The What type of MAN turns you on Test

Your Score: Tough guy

You scored 75% masculine, 70% athletic, 36% exotic, and 43% refined!

You love men, you love testosterone and you know it. You like a bad-ass man who knows what he wants. He isn't what you might bring home to mom but I don't think it really matters - he's hot! Someone like.....Vin Diesel.

M.T

Happy working...

I hate my job!!! Actually it's not so much hate, but more of apathy. I have never been much of a deskbound person, and to me this job is as interesting as watching paint dry... I miss doing desktop support!!! The ability to move around and meet new people face to face. To be able to perform my duties at my own pace as long as its within the deadline. To be able to slack every now and then on the job. Not have someone looking over your shoulder all the time. I admit I'm a slacker every now and then... Who isn't? This is getting to me... Before I go postal like Michael Douglas in Falling Down I better start finding a new job...

Till next time,

Our thought of the day,

"This job would be great if it weren't for the fucking customers." - Clerks

-Nightwatch

So It Was William After All...SHOCKING!!!

Most of you would have heard or seen the hottest reality TV game show, 'Yo Momma' on MTV, created and hosted by Wilmer Valderrama from the 70's show. One day while watching, it got me thinking...who or where did the 'Yo Momma' jokes come from? so I went online and digged out something interesting.

In the early 90's there was a hip hop band called The Pharcyde's that released a track tittled...you guessed it"Ya Momma". So at the out come of that, "Your mom" jokes became common in North American pop culture in the early nineties. Of all these years frequently used in playful banter between friends, The Biggest Hidden fact was The Phracyde's where not actually the first to start "Yo Momma".

Although this may appear to be a recent phenomenon, one can trace its roots far back in history. Indeed, William Shakespeare appears to utilize such a device in Act I Scene 1 of Timon of Athens.

Painter: "Y'are a dog."

Apemantus: "Thy mother's of my generation. What's she, if I be a dog?"

Here are some of my favourite Ugly "yo Momma" jokes.

1. Yo momma so ugly she made an onion cry.


2. Yo momma so ugly Ted Dansen wouldn't date her!


3. Yo momma so ugly that your father takes her to work with him so that he doesn't have to kiss her goodbye.


4. Yo momma so ugly when she walks into a bank they turn off surveillance cameras.


5. Yo momma so ugly just after she was born, her mother said "What a treasure!" and her father said "Yes, let's go bury it."

Tot Of the day:

An ounce of mother is worth a pound of clergy. - Rudyard Kipling

M.T

Schizophrenia

Did a test "Which Mental Disorder do you have?"

Data from a PET study suggests that the less

the frontal lobes are activated (red) during a

working memory task, the greater the increase

in abnormal dopamine activity in the

striatum (green), thought to be related to the

neurocognitive deficits in schizophrenia.

well I have Schizophrenia.! I always knew. well just so you know what i am talking about...Schizophrenia (from the Greek word schizophrenia, meaning "split mind") is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a mental disorder characterized by impairments in the perception or expression of reality and by significant social or occupational dysfunction. A person experiencing schizophrenia is typically characterized as demonstrating disorganized thinking, and as experiencing delusions or hallucinations, in particular auditory hallucinations.

Patients diagnosed with schizophrenia are highly likely to be diagnosed with other disorders. The lifetime prevalence of substance abuse is typically around 40%. Co morbidity is also high with clinical depression, anxiety disorders, and social problems, and a generally decreased life expectancy is also present. Patients diagnosed with schizophrenia typically live ten to twelve years less than those without the disorder, owing to increased physical health problems and a high suicide rate.

so here you have it...do your test and find out

You guys should give it a try here is the link http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=826&first=yes

M.T

Quote The Crow...

Like M.T said, both of us are huge Crow fans. There something about the movie which transcends all boundaries, race, creed or colour... It reminds you that love truly exists in the world and that sometimes, things happen for a reason. That said, I've listed some of the more memorable quotes from the movie below...

Quote The Crow...

"Victims, aren't we all?"- Eric Draven

"It can't rain all the time..."- Eric Draven

"And I say I am dead, and I move." - Eric Draven

FIRE IT UP! FIRE IT UP! FIRE IT UP! - T-Bird'z Gang

"Is that gasoline I smell?"- Eric Draven

"Real love is forever." - Sarah

"People once believed, that when someone dies, a crow carries their soul to the land of the dead. But sometimes, something so bad happens, that a terrible sadness is carried with it and the soul can't rest. Then sometimes, just sometimes the crow could bring that soul back to put the wrong things right."- Sarah

"Oh my God! Look what you've done to my sheets!"- Fun Boy

"Mother is the name of God on the lips and hearts of all children."- Eric Draven

Top Dollar:So how do you feel, Skank?
Skank:I feel like a little worm on a big fucking hook!

"Suddenly, I heard a tapping,as if someone gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door. You heard me rapping, right?"- Eric Draven

"Abashed the Devil stood and felt how awful Goodness is."- T-Bird

"Believe me, nothing is trivial"- Eric Draven

"Ya know, my daddy used to say, every man's got a devil, and you can't rest until you find him. Whatever happened back there with you and your girlfriend, I cleared that building. Hell, nothing happens in this town without my say-so. So I'm sorry if I spoiled your wedding plans, there, friend. But if it's any consolation to you, you have put a smile on my face."-Top Dollar

"Come on Funboy take your shot, you got me dead blank..."- Eric Draven

"30 hours of pain all at once all for you!!! " - Eric to Top Dollar

"A building get torched. All that is left is ashes. I used to think that it is true about everything - family, friends, feelings - but now I know that sometimes if love proves real, and two people are meant to be together, nothing can keep them apart."- Sarah

"If the people we love are taken from us, the way they live on is to never stop loving them.Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever."-Sarah

"Quick Impression for ya... Caw, Caw! Bang! FUCK! I'm dead!"- Top Dollar

"He was already dead......he died a year ago, the moment he touched her. They're all dead.....they just don't know it yet." - Eric Draven

"Because we do not know when we will die, we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well. Yet everything happens a certain number of times, and a very small number, really. How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, some afternoon that is so deeply a part of your being that you can't even conceive of your life without it? Perhaps four or five times more. Perhaps not even that. How many times will you watch the full moon rise? Perhaps twenty. And yet it all seems limitless." - Brandon Lee during his final interview

And for those of you who haven't seen the movie... Do yourself a favour and get the dvd. You won't regret it... I promise... :D

- Nightwatch

Facts about "The Crow" you didn know

This comic book series started it all. The Original cover

Those who were teens in the 90's would agree, that Crow was the movie of the decade for all demented souls. Nightwatch and I were, and still are, big fans of The Crow. We have watched it countless of times and it will still be the pick for a movie night at home. The Gothic culture was introduced and appreciated only after the release of the movie. It wasn't weird to like it anymore.

Here's a little tip about how the movie came along...

The Crow is a comic book series created by James O'Barr. The story was born out of James O'Barr's personal tradegy. The series was originally written by O'Barr as a means of getting over his girlfriend's death at the hands of a drunk driver. It was later published in 1989, and became an underground success. The main character, Eric, is modeled after two musical influences on O'Barr's life.

Firstly, Joy Division lead singer Ian Curtis, whose melancholic lyrics and spastic onstage dance movements (he was actually epileptic) inspired the character Eric the Crow! Ian Curtis hanged himself at the age of 23. He was Kurt Cobain of the 70's.

Secondly, Bauhaus lead singer Peter Murphy inspired his imposing physical presence, ghostly makeup, and sharp, high cheek bones.

Additionally, the names of Officer Albrecht and Captain Hook were from Joy Division members Bernard (Albrecht) Sumner and Peter Hook. Why Ian Curtis lyrics inspired O'Barr, maybe this is why...From the album unknown pleasures.

Disorder

I have been waiting for a guide to come and take me by the hand

could this sensations make me feel the pleasures of a normal man

The sensations barely interest me for another day

I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, take the shock away

Its getting faster, moving faster now, Its getting out of hand

On the tenth floor, down the back stairs, its a no man's land

Lights are flashing, cars are crashing, getting frequent now

Ive got the spirit, Lose the feeling, let it out somehow

what means to me, and what means to you, and we will meet again

I'm watching you and i am watching her, I take no pity from your friends

Who is right, who can tell, and who gives a damn right now

Until the spirit, new sensation takes hold, than you know

Until the spirit, new sensation takes hold, than you know

Until the spirit, new sensation takes hold, than you know

I've got the spirit but lose the feeling

I've got the spirit but lose the feelings

unofficial video clip of Disorder with him and band members enjoy...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F-idwFqpjUc

by

M.T

I wonder...

Aapu and I bored on MSN...Did a Super hero quiz test...

This is the result

I am

WONDER WOMAN

Nightwatch is

THE Catwoman

AND AAPU is

THE HULK

I always knew never to mess with that boy.

So which one are you?

http://www.thesuperheroquiz.com/

M.T

Buddha was a weed freak...

I have seen the light!!! I'm converting to Buddhism!!! It's been before my face all along!!! Buddha looks so serene cuz he's doped up!!! Look at the pics!!! It's the same frickkin expression man!!! That was his secret... That look wasn't through meditation, it was achieved by by rolling up a lil' leaf and lighting it up!!! I mean think about it... Weed has always been available in India, and is used in some parts as an offering to the Shiva. Being a prince, Gautama would have been
needed to attend the devotions, after which the offerings would have been handed out to the devotees with the king and his entourage having first pick... You do the math people!!! Secondly, if his life story is to be taken at face value, he was locked up in the palace wit every pleasure made available to him... Can you say recreational drugs boys and girls??? And him running away to see the outside world? Obviously while he was flying high. Hence the deep impact of seeing aging, sickness and death. Its been proven you're on a emotional roller coaster when you are high on weed. Thirdly, how can you be so serene when by all accounts people were trying to kill you all the time and it was a war filled era? To quote Cypress Hill, " Roll it up, Light it up, Smoke it up."... So, where do I sign up???

P.S: Anyone who takes this seriously will be taken out to the back and be viciously sodomised by a sex starved midget...

Till next time,

Our thought for the day,

The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple.

- Nightwatch

Quarter Life Crisis

"Quarter-life Crisis"

• It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like.
  

• You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
  

• You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.
  

• What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

• You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
  

• You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

• You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.

• You feel alone and scared and confused; Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

• You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better; All this while you had been convincing yourself that you didn't want to be tied down to any person, now suddenly you have moments of self-doubt when you wonder if you waited too long and let someone special get away. You love someone but maybe love someone else too, and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person! Random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.
  

• You want to be independent but suddenly, the idea of having the stability of a special someone to trust and lean on doesn't seem all that bad. You want to be your own person and yet be taken care of at the same time.
  

• You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
  

• You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender.
  

We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. God!!! I hate getting older!!!


-Nightwatch

Lost in thoughts...

Lately, I've been consumed by my thoughts. My minds like a snake biting its tail, running in circles. I'm losing sleep and being consumed by my doubts.Did I do the right thing? Am I doing the right thing?I heard so much and still I'm confused... Maybe I'm not as hard as I thought I was. Maybe I really do care? Maybe I'm just growing old and I'm clutching at straws? Maybe I really do need you? Maybe I have the dog in the manger syndrome? Maybe I should just curl up into a ball and whimper in a corner? It's overwhelming me and I don't know wat to do!!! This is not me. I've always been one to grab the bull by the horns, why not this time? Why am I feeling so insecure? It's like I'm fat and 18 again... Thoughts, suggestions anyone?

Till next time,

Our thought for the day,

I never thought there could be anything worse than being all alone in the night. But there is: being all alone in a crowd.

-Nightwatch

Othello vs Omkara

Bollywood has come out from their comfort zone, for some time now. A great example is Omkara, Hindi version of the very much loved 1995 Othello.

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Lawrence fishburne Othello Ajay Devgan

Kenneth Branagh Lago Saif Ali Khan

Irene Jacob Desdemona Kareena Kapoor

Of cause after I watched Omkara I still loved Othello more than ever before, I couldn't imagine anyone else playing Othello other than lawrence Fishburne, Anyone playing the vicious Lago other than Kenneth...huh the great kenneth Branagh who gave us Hamlet, Much ado about nothing(for those who never read or even watch any of William Shakespeare's work, this might help Frankenstein, to make it simpler Wild Wild West-the guy with the spider legs) But I could sure imagine someone else other than Ajay Devgan and Kareena Kapoor. Kareena Kapoor...What the fuck were they thinking? Obviously they were not! The only one who made justice to his role was Saif Ali Khan. The Attempt to make him Ugly was not successful but he should be applauded to have stolen the show from the main character. So in over all it was a Good Try for the Bollys! Only Sad thing is they had to copy the poster idea too.

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M.T

Gale Harold is fucking hott!!!

Well those who don't know him he was the lead actor in a hot TV drama in the states called Queer as folk. Which was adapted by the original drama from the UK. why is he hot I think...well, maybe simply because he makes being gay so sexy and charming?...OH who gives a fuck he is just hot OK, and he has the perrrfect ass that you just want to grip and sink your nails into and...hmm did I mention I am a heterosexual female? well I am. I have a weakness for nice, tight ass, and it just happen to be that gay men have better ass usually compared to straight men. I love Gay men, most women who have friends who are gay would agree with me that they look great, smell nice(Always), great hair, usually successful and have marvelous taste in clothes, And most of them are cultured and well spoken. So sue me for loving gay men. So coming back to Gale Harold, he is not gay by the way he just acted as one, was so convincing being gay that I wanted to have his babies! sounds weird I know, but its true great physique, tall dark handsome, intelligent, very successful, can you imagine what great babies you can have?

PS: I also like watching gay men making out...OK I know...I may need help! But than if straight men watching lesbians making out is norm, Why am I weird? very confused...

M.T

Success...

What exactly defines success? The qualifications you got? The money you make in a year? The job you hold? The people you know? The circles you move around in? The house you live in? This question always runs amok in my mind, thanks to my dearest mum who judges success by the above mentioned criteria. Oh, how she goes on and on about how I've never amounted to nothing because I don't have any of the above mentioned. How she goes on about how so and so's son is buying a landed property or how that person's son is getting married at the Shangri-la... But mother, I have everything need to be happy... I have good friends, a job which pays me enough to provide for myself and something for you, my health ( For however long that lasts...), my family and most importantly people who care about me. I am happy the way I am, I would like to be rich, who wouldn't? But I guess I'm happy being comfortable. And that, friends and neighbors defines success for me... The right to be fairly judged by my accomplishments, but more importantly to be myself and not someone else...

Till next time,

Our thought for the day,

I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.

- Nightwatch

Frankly Ah Neh No One Gives A Damn

Whats with Indian guys dating Chinese girls? Don't get me wrong, I don't have a problem with interracial dating. I have at my share of 'Rainbow' dating. I never dated my own race, not by choice it just happened that way and most importantly for the last 9 years I am with a man from another race. Indian guys have this funny look on their face when they are with Chinese girls. They are always looking at you if you are looking at them. As if they are walking around with a trophy or some kind. Last week I was in Tampines mall and there was this Ah neh with a Chinese chick...always looking if I was looking. Everywhere I turned he was there looking directly at me while with a snobbish face. I thought that was so weird. Many years ago there I was sitting at coffee club at siglap waiting for my boyfriend. There was a Indian guy and Chinese girl sitting right opposite me. The guy was talking on the top of his voice, and staring at me the whole time. Did I mention how he was making stupid comments about Indians. Well, and my boyfriend came to join me and Ah neh literally dropped his jaw it could have not been anymore obvious. After that he kept staring at me like I was a traitor or something...he made it very clear he was not happy that I was sitting there with a man from another race. He gave me the look like I was doing something wrong. In fact I was sure that he gave this head shaking disgusted look. ( Maybe he was jealous my Chinese boyfriend was prettier than his Chinese girlfriend?) I don't know, So I gave him back the dirty look, and my boyfriend finally asked him if he has a problem. He left without a word with his girlfriend. So my advice to those 'Rainbow' dating people please remember its about being with the right person and being happy and proud of your partner. ITS NOT A BLOODY FASHION statement. Stop acting like you are special cause you are not. Easier to date someone from the Majority group of people(more to choose from), than the Minority(too little to go around). That goes for me too. So Ah nehs out there stop shoving it on every one's faces, cause the truth is no one bloody cares what or who you date.(except for your amma and appa maybe) So with a little fav song of mine form EN Vogue. I end the Tot of the day...



Oh my please forgive me for having Straight hair

It doesn't mean there's another blood in My heirs

I might date another race or color

Doesn't mean i don't like my strong Black brothers



free your mind and the rest will follow,
be colorblind,
don't be so shallow
(before you read me you gotta learn how to see me)

M.T

Exhausted...

Don't want to think, don't want to be in the office, don't want to listen to idiots whine bout inconsequential prattle, don't want to feel so stoned, don't want to talk, don't want to have insomnia, don't want to lie awake for no reason... I JUST WANNA SLEEP!!! God must really hate me... On da bright side, all the alcohol these past few days has been really yummy!!!! HeHeHe.

Till next time

Our thought for the day,

SLEEP: That fleeting moment just before the alarm goes off.

-Nightwatch

Cowabunga!!!

The Ticket


Finally the long awaited movie of the year...TMNT! The gang didn't make it for the first day but we sure made it on the second day of opening. It was a stormy night. The sky looked like it was going to fall on us all. Aapu couldn't even ride his bike. But at the end, all was worth it. We had great fun, except for, I was Raphael for so long till the movie...now i have been baptised to be Leonardo. Cause Raphael has a bike in the movie. Leo is the leader...and the gang and I know Aapu is the man in the lead. Anyway it all turned out well, except Sothapal(Michelangelo) couldn't join us for the movie. The evening ended with 15 mins in Katong village and a class of vodka. It wasn't my fault Puti(Donatello) had a genius idea.





The Dark Sky Before the movie

M.T

WHY DO MEN...

Came along this page...Thought it was as honest as it gets, and also darn funny!

Why are men such jerks?
It's a testosterone thing. Much similar to your PMS thing, we men suffer from testosterone poisoning. Why do you think the average life span of a male is typically 10 years shorter (and it's not just from all the bitching and nagging we have to endure)? Hormone modifies behavior. We're just misunderstood.

Why do men always say such stupid things?
We like to. It's actually a whole lot of fun to see our partner frustrated by a few simple (and well chosen) words.

Why are men so uncommunicative?
You'd learn to keep your big mouth shut too if every time you open it you get into trouble with your partner.

Why do men have to act like such retards?
Well, we don't actually have to; we do it because we enjoy it. It's the old fashioned pride in a job well done that's missing in so much of the world nowadays.

Why can't men just share their feelings?
Do we look like women to you? Why is it so hard to understand that men and women are different? How are we supposed to share how we feel when we have no idea how we feel? Unless we're experiencing some extreme emotion like rage, hatred, disgust, or a brick on our foot, we have no idea how we feel. Personally, I get a headache whenever I try to figure out how I feel.

Why can't men cuddle more (i.e. lie down and hug)?
Please... How many hours do you think there is in a day? We oblige you as much as we can, but who the heck (besides women) can stand lying around for hours on end? We men... Men hunters... Need go roam... Starve in cave... Must go find wildebeest... Now sitting on our asses for hours on end on the other hand is a whole other story.

Why can't men just say "I love you?"
Men are taught from a tender young age to be self-sufficient. To say that we love you is equivalent to saying that we need you. Most men consider that a character fault. It's not easy to admit to one's own character faults.

Why do men say "I love you" when they hardly know me?
Ho, Ho, Ho... Aren't you special? Well, some men think it's a sure fire way to get into your pants. Surprisingly, it actually still works quite well.

What does it mean when men say "I Love You?"
1. Please sleep with me. 2. I'm sorry for whatever it is that I did. 3. I forgot to get you a gift; this will have to do. 4. Huh? I'm sorry; I wasn't listening. 5. What did I forget? This should buy me a little time. 6. Stop nagging me. 7. What do I have to do to get a beer around here?

What's with all the belching and farting?
This usually only occurs after months of courting. It's our way to let you know that we're comfortable with you. Believe it or not, it's actually a sign of affection. Besides, holding it for extended periods of time gives us stomach cramps.

Why do men hate shopping?
It's an evolutionary thing. Men hunt. Women gather. We just want to go out, kill it, and bring it back. Who wants to spend hours and hours to look at things we have no intention of killing? err... Buying?

Why can't men ever leave the toilet seat down?
Have you ever seen one of us pee? The proper position of the toilet seat is up. Mathematically speaking, the proper position of the toilet seat is a function of the time spent peeing over the time spent sitting. The closer that ratio approaches one, the truer the proposition. Besides, it's actually a courtesy that we lift the seat. Why would we care if we pee all over the seat. You're the ones that have to sit on it. You should appreciate the fact that we actually lift the darn thing. We aim to please.

Why do men find blonde bimbos attractive?
Are you kidding? Even leaving the physical aside, blonde bimbos are generally much easier to get along (alone) with. They like having fun and doing exciting things. They don't walk around with the weight of the world on their shoulders. They don't ever give us a hard time for being a dumb male; and plus they laugh at most of our jokes (even the ones they don't get). What more could any of us males ask for?

Why do men fear commitment?
Don't be so surprised. Yes; most of us do know what 'commitment' means and can spell it correctly. It's like an automobile. No matter how good you think this year's model is, they're always coming out with newer, faster, better, sleeker, and sexier models. We simply cannot be expected to purchase the first one we see. We must browse around a bit and test drive a few. Who wants to end up with a lemon? At least with a car, there's a slight chance of it eventually becoming a classic. It simply makes much more sense to lease and upgrade to the younger... err... I mean newer models every couple of years. Some of them come with fun extras like dual air bags.

What does it mean when men say, "I'm just not ready for a relationship right now" or "I don't want a girl friend?"
It means that we like you enough to sleep with you, but not enough so that we want to see you repeatedly.

What does it mean when men say, "Can we just be friends?"
Generally, it means that the recipient of said comment is physically repulsive enough that no beer goggles may be thick enough to provide adequate protection.

Do all men really masterbate?
Yes. It is genetically inherited behavior. It's been passed on from our most primal forefathers, and it'll be passed on to our sons.

Why are men so obsessed with beautiful women?
As opposed to what? Really ugly women? Face it, if men were obsessed with ugly women, there would be just as much bitching about why men are so obsessed with ugly women. No matter how you set this up, some people are always going to be left out. I don't see anyone screaming about equal treatment for the stupid people either.

Why do men like younger women?
Well, let's see. Besides the fact that they like older men, they're easily impressed. They're also perky, energetic, and come with very little baggage. And gravity has less prevail over their bodies.

Why do men only have one thing on their minds?
While technically correct, this statement is not strictly true. We may only be able to entertain one idea at a time, but we do think of lots of other things besides sex, such as sports and beer. We also get hungry quite often.

How can men possibly find that other woman attractive (i.e. whatever do you see in that fat pig)?
Even if you happen to be Cindy Crawford, once we get the idea that you are ours, other women suddenly become much more attractive and you lose a few attractiveness points. I'm a bit puzzled by this one myself. I think evolution is to blame. We men are just innocent bystanders in the war of the selfish genes. You should love us despite our inherent weakness.

Why are men such dogs?
I resent that. Dogs are faithful... loyal... affectionate... and obedient...

M.T