Schizophrenia

Did a test "Which Mental Disorder do you have?"

Data from a PET study suggests that the less

the frontal lobes are activated (red) during a

working memory task, the greater the increase

in abnormal dopamine activity in the

striatum (green), thought to be related to the

neurocognitive deficits in schizophrenia.

well I have Schizophrenia.! I always knew. well just so you know what i am talking about...Schizophrenia (from the Greek word schizophrenia, meaning "split mind") is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a mental disorder characterized by impairments in the perception or expression of reality and by significant social or occupational dysfunction. A person experiencing schizophrenia is typically characterized as demonstrating disorganized thinking, and as experiencing delusions or hallucinations, in particular auditory hallucinations.

Patients diagnosed with schizophrenia are highly likely to be diagnosed with other disorders. The lifetime prevalence of substance abuse is typically around 40%. Co morbidity is also high with clinical depression, anxiety disorders, and social problems, and a generally decreased life expectancy is also present. Patients diagnosed with schizophrenia typically live ten to twelve years less than those without the disorder, owing to increased physical health problems and a high suicide rate.

so here you have it...do your test and find out

You guys should give it a try here is the link http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=826&first=yes

M.T

Quote The Crow...

Like M.T said, both of us are huge Crow fans. There something about the movie which transcends all boundaries, race, creed or colour... It reminds you that love truly exists in the world and that sometimes, things happen for a reason. That said, I've listed some of the more memorable quotes from the movie below...

Quote The Crow...

"Victims, aren't we all?"- Eric Draven

"It can't rain all the time..."- Eric Draven

"And I say I am dead, and I move." - Eric Draven

FIRE IT UP! FIRE IT UP! FIRE IT UP! - T-Bird'z Gang

"Is that gasoline I smell?"- Eric Draven

"Real love is forever." - Sarah

"People once believed, that when someone dies, a crow carries their soul to the land of the dead. But sometimes, something so bad happens, that a terrible sadness is carried with it and the soul can't rest. Then sometimes, just sometimes the crow could bring that soul back to put the wrong things right."- Sarah

"Oh my God! Look what you've done to my sheets!"- Fun Boy

"Mother is the name of God on the lips and hearts of all children."- Eric Draven

Top Dollar:So how do you feel, Skank?
Skank:I feel like a little worm on a big fucking hook!

"Suddenly, I heard a tapping,as if someone gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door. You heard me rapping, right?"- Eric Draven

"Abashed the Devil stood and felt how awful Goodness is."- T-Bird

"Believe me, nothing is trivial"- Eric Draven

"Ya know, my daddy used to say, every man's got a devil, and you can't rest until you find him. Whatever happened back there with you and your girlfriend, I cleared that building. Hell, nothing happens in this town without my say-so. So I'm sorry if I spoiled your wedding plans, there, friend. But if it's any consolation to you, you have put a smile on my face."-Top Dollar

"Come on Funboy take your shot, you got me dead blank..."- Eric Draven

"30 hours of pain all at once all for you!!! " - Eric to Top Dollar

"A building get torched. All that is left is ashes. I used to think that it is true about everything - family, friends, feelings - but now I know that sometimes if love proves real, and two people are meant to be together, nothing can keep them apart."- Sarah

"If the people we love are taken from us, the way they live on is to never stop loving them.Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever."-Sarah

"Quick Impression for ya... Caw, Caw! Bang! FUCK! I'm dead!"- Top Dollar

"He was already dead......he died a year ago, the moment he touched her. They're all dead.....they just don't know it yet." - Eric Draven

"Because we do not know when we will die, we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well. Yet everything happens a certain number of times, and a very small number, really. How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, some afternoon that is so deeply a part of your being that you can't even conceive of your life without it? Perhaps four or five times more. Perhaps not even that. How many times will you watch the full moon rise? Perhaps twenty. And yet it all seems limitless." - Brandon Lee during his final interview

And for those of you who haven't seen the movie... Do yourself a favour and get the dvd. You won't regret it... I promise... :D

- Nightwatch

Facts about "The Crow" you didn know

This comic book series started it all. The Original cover

Those who were teens in the 90's would agree, that Crow was the movie of the decade for all demented souls. Nightwatch and I were, and still are, big fans of The Crow. We have watched it countless of times and it will still be the pick for a movie night at home. The Gothic culture was introduced and appreciated only after the release of the movie. It wasn't weird to like it anymore.

Here's a little tip about how the movie came along...

The Crow is a comic book series created by James O'Barr. The story was born out of James O'Barr's personal tradegy. The series was originally written by O'Barr as a means of getting over his girlfriend's death at the hands of a drunk driver. It was later published in 1989, and became an underground success. The main character, Eric, is modeled after two musical influences on O'Barr's life.

Firstly, Joy Division lead singer Ian Curtis, whose melancholic lyrics and spastic onstage dance movements (he was actually epileptic) inspired the character Eric the Crow! Ian Curtis hanged himself at the age of 23. He was Kurt Cobain of the 70's.

Secondly, Bauhaus lead singer Peter Murphy inspired his imposing physical presence, ghostly makeup, and sharp, high cheek bones.

Additionally, the names of Officer Albrecht and Captain Hook were from Joy Division members Bernard (Albrecht) Sumner and Peter Hook. Why Ian Curtis lyrics inspired O'Barr, maybe this is why...From the album unknown pleasures.

Disorder

I have been waiting for a guide to come and take me by the hand

could this sensations make me feel the pleasures of a normal man

The sensations barely interest me for another day

I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, take the shock away

Its getting faster, moving faster now, Its getting out of hand

On the tenth floor, down the back stairs, its a no man's land

Lights are flashing, cars are crashing, getting frequent now

Ive got the spirit, Lose the feeling, let it out somehow

what means to me, and what means to you, and we will meet again

I'm watching you and i am watching her, I take no pity from your friends

Who is right, who can tell, and who gives a damn right now

Until the spirit, new sensation takes hold, than you know

Until the spirit, new sensation takes hold, than you know

Until the spirit, new sensation takes hold, than you know

I've got the spirit but lose the feeling

I've got the spirit but lose the feelings

unofficial video clip of Disorder with him and band members enjoy...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F-idwFqpjUc

by

M.T

I wonder...

Aapu and I bored on MSN...Did a Super hero quiz test...

This is the result

I am

WONDER WOMAN

Nightwatch is

THE Catwoman

AND AAPU is

THE HULK

I always knew never to mess with that boy.

So which one are you?

http://www.thesuperheroquiz.com/

M.T

Buddha was a weed freak...

I have seen the light!!! I'm converting to Buddhism!!! It's been before my face all along!!! Buddha looks so serene cuz he's doped up!!! Look at the pics!!! It's the same frickkin expression man!!! That was his secret... That look wasn't through meditation, it was achieved by by rolling up a lil' leaf and lighting it up!!! I mean think about it... Weed has always been available in India, and is used in some parts as an offering to the Shiva. Being a prince, Gautama would have been
needed to attend the devotions, after which the offerings would have been handed out to the devotees with the king and his entourage having first pick... You do the math people!!! Secondly, if his life story is to be taken at face value, he was locked up in the palace wit every pleasure made available to him... Can you say recreational drugs boys and girls??? And him running away to see the outside world? Obviously while he was flying high. Hence the deep impact of seeing aging, sickness and death. Its been proven you're on a emotional roller coaster when you are high on weed. Thirdly, how can you be so serene when by all accounts people were trying to kill you all the time and it was a war filled era? To quote Cypress Hill, " Roll it up, Light it up, Smoke it up."... So, where do I sign up???

P.S: Anyone who takes this seriously will be taken out to the back and be viciously sodomised by a sex starved midget...

Till next time,

Our thought for the day,

The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple.

- Nightwatch

Quarter Life Crisis

"Quarter-life Crisis"

• It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like.
  

• You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
  

• You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.
  

• What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

• You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
  

• You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

• You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.

• You feel alone and scared and confused; Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

• You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better; All this while you had been convincing yourself that you didn't want to be tied down to any person, now suddenly you have moments of self-doubt when you wonder if you waited too long and let someone special get away. You love someone but maybe love someone else too, and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person! Random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.
  

• You want to be independent but suddenly, the idea of having the stability of a special someone to trust and lean on doesn't seem all that bad. You want to be your own person and yet be taken care of at the same time.
  

• You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
  

• You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender.
  

We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. God!!! I hate getting older!!!


-Nightwatch

Lost in thoughts...

Lately, I've been consumed by my thoughts. My minds like a snake biting its tail, running in circles. I'm losing sleep and being consumed by my doubts.Did I do the right thing? Am I doing the right thing?I heard so much and still I'm confused... Maybe I'm not as hard as I thought I was. Maybe I really do care? Maybe I'm just growing old and I'm clutching at straws? Maybe I really do need you? Maybe I have the dog in the manger syndrome? Maybe I should just curl up into a ball and whimper in a corner? It's overwhelming me and I don't know wat to do!!! This is not me. I've always been one to grab the bull by the horns, why not this time? Why am I feeling so insecure? It's like I'm fat and 18 again... Thoughts, suggestions anyone?

Till next time,

Our thought for the day,

I never thought there could be anything worse than being all alone in the night. But there is: being all alone in a crowd.

-Nightwatch

Othello vs Omkara

Bollywood has come out from their comfort zone, for some time now. A great example is Omkara, Hindi version of the very much loved 1995 Othello.

HINDI

ENGLISH

Lawrence fishburne Othello Ajay Devgan

Kenneth Branagh Lago Saif Ali Khan

Irene Jacob Desdemona Kareena Kapoor

Of cause after I watched Omkara I still loved Othello more than ever before, I couldn't imagine anyone else playing Othello other than lawrence Fishburne, Anyone playing the vicious Lago other than Kenneth...huh the great kenneth Branagh who gave us Hamlet, Much ado about nothing(for those who never read or even watch any of William Shakespeare's work, this might help Frankenstein, to make it simpler Wild Wild West-the guy with the spider legs) But I could sure imagine someone else other than Ajay Devgan and Kareena Kapoor. Kareena Kapoor...What the fuck were they thinking? Obviously they were not! The only one who made justice to his role was Saif Ali Khan. The Attempt to make him Ugly was not successful but he should be applauded to have stolen the show from the main character. So in over all it was a Good Try for the Bollys! Only Sad thing is they had to copy the poster idea too.

By

M.T

Gale Harold is fucking hott!!!

Well those who don't know him he was the lead actor in a hot TV drama in the states called Queer as folk. Which was adapted by the original drama from the UK. why is he hot I think...well, maybe simply because he makes being gay so sexy and charming?...OH who gives a fuck he is just hot OK, and he has the perrrfect ass that you just want to grip and sink your nails into and...hmm did I mention I am a heterosexual female? well I am. I have a weakness for nice, tight ass, and it just happen to be that gay men have better ass usually compared to straight men. I love Gay men, most women who have friends who are gay would agree with me that they look great, smell nice(Always), great hair, usually successful and have marvelous taste in clothes, And most of them are cultured and well spoken. So sue me for loving gay men. So coming back to Gale Harold, he is not gay by the way he just acted as one, was so convincing being gay that I wanted to have his babies! sounds weird I know, but its true great physique, tall dark handsome, intelligent, very successful, can you imagine what great babies you can have?

PS: I also like watching gay men making out...OK I know...I may need help! But than if straight men watching lesbians making out is norm, Why am I weird? very confused...

M.T

Success...

What exactly defines success? The qualifications you got? The money you make in a year? The job you hold? The people you know? The circles you move around in? The house you live in? This question always runs amok in my mind, thanks to my dearest mum who judges success by the above mentioned criteria. Oh, how she goes on and on about how I've never amounted to nothing because I don't have any of the above mentioned. How she goes on about how so and so's son is buying a landed property or how that person's son is getting married at the Shangri-la... But mother, I have everything need to be happy... I have good friends, a job which pays me enough to provide for myself and something for you, my health ( For however long that lasts...), my family and most importantly people who care about me. I am happy the way I am, I would like to be rich, who wouldn't? But I guess I'm happy being comfortable. And that, friends and neighbors defines success for me... The right to be fairly judged by my accomplishments, but more importantly to be myself and not someone else...

Till next time,

Our thought for the day,

I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.

- Nightwatch

Frankly Ah Neh No One Gives A Damn

Whats with Indian guys dating Chinese girls? Don't get me wrong, I don't have a problem with interracial dating. I have at my share of 'Rainbow' dating. I never dated my own race, not by choice it just happened that way and most importantly for the last 9 years I am with a man from another race. Indian guys have this funny look on their face when they are with Chinese girls. They are always looking at you if you are looking at them. As if they are walking around with a trophy or some kind. Last week I was in Tampines mall and there was this Ah neh with a Chinese chick...always looking if I was looking. Everywhere I turned he was there looking directly at me while with a snobbish face. I thought that was so weird. Many years ago there I was sitting at coffee club at siglap waiting for my boyfriend. There was a Indian guy and Chinese girl sitting right opposite me. The guy was talking on the top of his voice, and staring at me the whole time. Did I mention how he was making stupid comments about Indians. Well, and my boyfriend came to join me and Ah neh literally dropped his jaw it could have not been anymore obvious. After that he kept staring at me like I was a traitor or something...he made it very clear he was not happy that I was sitting there with a man from another race. He gave me the look like I was doing something wrong. In fact I was sure that he gave this head shaking disgusted look. ( Maybe he was jealous my Chinese boyfriend was prettier than his Chinese girlfriend?) I don't know, So I gave him back the dirty look, and my boyfriend finally asked him if he has a problem. He left without a word with his girlfriend. So my advice to those 'Rainbow' dating people please remember its about being with the right person and being happy and proud of your partner. ITS NOT A BLOODY FASHION statement. Stop acting like you are special cause you are not. Easier to date someone from the Majority group of people(more to choose from), than the Minority(too little to go around). That goes for me too. So Ah nehs out there stop shoving it on every one's faces, cause the truth is no one bloody cares what or who you date.(except for your amma and appa maybe) So with a little fav song of mine form EN Vogue. I end the Tot of the day...



Oh my please forgive me for having Straight hair

It doesn't mean there's another blood in My heirs

I might date another race or color

Doesn't mean i don't like my strong Black brothers



free your mind and the rest will follow,
be colorblind,
don't be so shallow
(before you read me you gotta learn how to see me)

M.T