Reflections...

Been looking into the mirror lately and I find I don't recognise the person in it. I've always thought of myself as a sweet guy, 'one of the girls' sort, always up for a laugh, show me the party and I'm there, devil may care attitude, all the razzle and dazzle, a comfort and fun to have around sort of guy. But I've realised that that person barely exists anymore. I'm more cynical, world weary, paranoid, quicker to anger, more prone to being in the pits and I find that my soul is stained by a darkness, a rage which never was there before. Maybe it's growing older, seeing and doing things I never thought I would which have marked me. For better or worse? I don't know. I feel like I'm falling into an abyss. But I know I'm blessed as well. For those of you who know me I'm still in the pink of health after all the abuse I put my body through *grinz*. A family which still wants me to come up in life and loves me unconditionally even after everything I've done. Friends who have my back and believe me, I've got yours. In case you don't know who you, are a big shout out to M.T and Karadi. I love you guys man. And most importantly to Muffin, who showed me the dark, ravening beast which exists in me. Thank you for showing me a side I never knew existed.

Till next time,

Our thought for the day,

The character of every act depends upon the circumstances in which it is done.

- Nightwatch

Parkathe From Gentleman

Significan Moments Part 2

Right than I felt I was in a cave, the silence was so loud it hurt. I looked across the room and met my mom's eyes. She shook her head in embarrassment. That very moment I thought my utter most fantasy might come tru, she might actually disown me. I gave a delightful smile and turned to look at the extreme die hard christian fanatics in the room, doubtful about any invitations for any family events in the future coming my way. Yet another Fantasy of mine for a longest time. I heard a 60 year old " Amma Nalla thaan iruntichi paake(yes it looked nice), he can be MY Gentleman he he!" . Everyone were laughing and there goes my fantasy. No disowning that night, future invitations to meaningless family gatherings on the way. Just because a 60 year old shared my sentiments for a nice pair of ass. Flushed! simply flushed down the toilet. That night was a significant moment in its own sad way. I found out wrinkly old grannies appreciate a nice ass too, I should never scream out during the end of a song(which I am still working on BTW, this explains why normally the whole club knows I have to pee when I try to scream to Nightwatch). So Here's to Arjun's Ass, "Gentleman" the movie, hard to forget after an event like this.

Cheers,

M.T

My Significant moments

Tamil movies...Mr crazy crazy man makes fun of the fact how I always complain about Tamil movies but watch it whenever i get the chance. Why do i watch Tamil movies, i serious don't know, maybe because it was great entertainment when you are broke and for 3 hours you have something to do...like bitch for an example. it was a Thursday and Friday nite tradition when SBC showed two parts of Tamil movies in the 80's. used to remember Friday mornings feeling sleepy and talking about the first half of the movie during classes. I still haven't figured out why they split the the movies into two days. maybe just maybe because...MM simply cause they CAN AND THERES NOTHING WE COULD DO ABT IT!? oh those days, I had a great talent with Tamil movies, i can watch a movie and forget the title and especially the songs. most of my friends where great with the songs they could hear a beat and tell which movie its from. I on the other hand remember a movie when there is something meaningful or significant. for example. those days wanna watch Tamil movies ? you go to Hoover theatre. My Tamil movie addict cousin drags me to watch a movie. after two bus and 1.30hrs, 6 songs 3 fights much tears, and whistles from lonely foreign workers, on the bus way back home everyone were talking about the songs they like, the costumes they liked... etc. so i thought i should say something too. I said "dame this Arjun has an ass to die for, he wearing the see tru white veshti and bending down to knead the dough, is the best part of the movie. he must be working out, cause the boy has a tight ass! that was the last time my cousins and i ever went to watch Tamil movies together. that was my significant moment... Arjun's tight ass. A year later, at a wedding they were playing a song. People went crazy, everyone started dancing, so i asked my cousin which movie? and he tried ex planing to me the best he could, no bells rang. Finally my cousin said " white veshti, nalla satti.. mahvu penenchaan da!" Just when the song was ending. There was a moment of silence, I remembered the significant moment of the movie, it all came back to me and I shouted "AHMMA DA SUPERR SATTI ILLA?!"

M.T

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